Let me preface this by saying that I am not clinically depressed and I don’t want to minimize the struggle of those who have depression. I know what a difficult battle it is and I know it’s so much more than just being sad. It can be debilitating.
As if OCD weren’t difficult enough to deal with on its own, people with OCD often have comorbid disorders. This means that there are other mental disorders (like depression, other anxiety disorders and eating disorders) that frequently co-exist with OCD. Fighting OCD seems so impossible sometimes. Adding more to that makes the monster seem even bigger.
I can completely see why OCD and depression seem to get along so well. Seriously. Anything that can make as big a mess of a person’s life as OCD would naturally be depression’s best friend. Some days I feel like I could very easily let myself slip into depression, especially if I start thinking about what my future will look like if I can’t beat OCD. Some days depression sits right outside my door and like a predator, tries to charm and seduce its way into my life. Some days it is almost irresistible. Some days I almost open the door. Some days I think it would be easier than fighting.
I know it wouldn’t be easier, though. It would make everything more difficult. It would make an even bigger mess. It would allow OCD full control. So I keep the door closed, hoping that I never give in and open the door.
Do any of you OCDers suffer from depression? How do you cope? How does that change treatment (if you’re in treatment, that is)?